Saturday, October 21, 2017

Challenges that come how will you handle the storm?

Good Afternoon, Everyone! I hope that you have wonderful day today. I posed the question to you because I have had several challenges thrown at me recently. I thought by posing it to you I thought it would give you something to think about. I could have easily thrown in the towel and given up in the storms I am facing right now. I chose not to give up. I chose to face these storms head on.  I know that God will carry me through them. We all face different challenges and storms in our lives; from things in our lives, the children, medical things, relationship things and more. The challenges I am facing right now are medical related. They’re overwhelming to me because they’re coming one after the other.  Yes, I could give up, I could cry over them, I could get angry over them; I could worry; where would that get me? How would that resolve anything? It would not resolve anything, it would only stop me in my tracks. It would stop me from moving forward. I instead have taken each one of these challenges to the Lord. I have given them to Him to carry. I left them with Him and as I go through these challenges I will give all the new information that comes from each one and give it to the Lord. I know the days ahead will not be easy, but with the Lord they will be easier. How you ask? Here are some scriptures that I have read that will help me through the days ahead. I will share them with you here. After I share the scriptures with you I will open up about the medical challenges I am facing. 

Psalms 27:1 
 “The Lord is my light and my salvation —so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?”

Isaiah 41:13
“For I hold you by your right hand — I the Lord your God. And, I say to you, Don’t be afraid. I am here to help you.”

I Peter 5:7
“Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you.” 

As promised I told you I would open up about what is going on with me. The first storm has been my back I have been having lots of pain still from my injury in April with the aquatic therapy. I have now had two surgical back procedures and may be facing a third. A second storm that I am facing is one with my eyes. I was already diagnosed with early stages of glaucoma, but that is begining to change. I was told that the collagen defect due to my brittle bones disease is now affecting my eyes. I may be facing some serious things ahead. They did mention about surgery for the eyes. I don’t know as I am ready for that yet. I know these things generally happen later in your life, but I am experiencing things now.  I did not think I would be experiencing these right now in my life. I also am experiencing injuries that are occurring without my doing anything to be hurt. I was dealing with extreme pain in my left elbow. I did not know what could be causing it. The doctor asked if I had been doing any heavy lifting or gardening; no, I have not. I have been recouping from a back surgical procedure two weeks ago. He said I guess you wouldn’t be then. They took some pictures and ran some scans discovering that the tendon in my elbow is inflamed and tearing. Again the words surgery come out of the doctor’s mouth. Not what I was wanting to hear. We will try other things before surgery. I will try physical therapy then from there we will see what needs to be done to resolve things.

How you take the storms that come in our lives will determine how you come out on the other side of the storm. If we let them control us then we can be negative, we can give up when there is a positive side that we are missing because we have decided to cover that with negative thoughts. This brings me to a scripture that I love a lot because I remember it often.

2 Corinthians 10:4-6

“For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casing down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, and being ready to punish all disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled.”

Thanks for taking the time to read this entry. I hope it has given some insight for you to be able to take on your storms in a different way. 

Thank You for stopping by, 

Monday, July 10, 2017

A Beautiful Summer Day....

Hi, Everyone!!! I hope you're having a great day.  I have been reading and enjoying the sunshine today. It's been pretty hot today; typical summer day. I thank God for his beautiful creations. The trees, flowers, the birds, animals. I enjoy seeing them when I look out my window. 

Today has been a pretty good day. The pain is at a minimum right now. I am thankful for that as yesterday was a bit of a challenge when I was at church. I didn't get up and leave although I could have, I chose to stay. God blessed me in that because when I left I was not in pain as I was in the service. Thank you, Lord!!! I felt very refreshed after being in service. I came home and I was able to hear the sermon again!! It was already up!!! Sometimes it takes a day or two, but it was already up.  I then went to a site of a Pastor friend of my family, Pastor Ken Graves,  to see if he had a sermon from the same book of the Bible and he did. I listened to him as well. I was blessed to see that many of the points that my Pastor brought out our friend, Pastor Ken Graves did as well.  This is the sermon from my Pastor, Dr. Eric Paashaus 2 John, Jesus In The Flesh.

I will leave you with this short message; have fun, enjoy your day!! I will write more another time. 

Friday, July 7, 2017

Coming Back......Everything that should have broken me...only made me stronger!

Hi, Everyone!!! Hope you're having a good day. I have been busy this morning with reading and talking to a few close friends that needed me this morning. I also had some business that I had to attend to for my husband and that's complete now. I can finally take some time to write here. Well, ok...that phone call made a hiccup. We had appointments planned for our son this week and pre-registered for them. A call came and now the place that is doing his DEXA scan changed the appointment for the they're going to coordinate it with the doctor instead of my having to call.  I appreciate that since they had taken it to their hands to change the appointment to start with. 

Now for the title, why I chose "Everything that should have broken me....only made me stronger!" I chose that because I have sat here during my recovery with loved ones around me. The various things I felt with the injury from losing functionality in my leg to the point that I couldn't walk. I had to learn to walk again. I had excruciating pain that even with meds didn't relieve it maybe as quickly as I hoped.  God is bigger and God had it in control. I shed many tears during that time as the ladies that came around me can tell you. Them encouraging me; helping me when I needed help to stand, to walk, to do just about any daily task that I needed to do. They were there. They saw that I was down because of the injury, but they didn't leave me there. No, they gave me the tools to get myself back up...they encouraged me through books to read that would be uplifting and showing that I needed not to be down.  They read God's Word to me and had me follow in my Bible where they were reading. We spent time in prayer, we spent time in worship.  I loved and still, love the time we spend together. We do get together even though I am getting better. I am still recovering, but not needing them hovering around me so much now. 

 I am thankful for the friendships that have developed even deeper. I am thankful for all that God placed in my life. 

Have a great day!!

Monday, June 12, 2017

Beginning to find Life.....

Hi, Everyone!!! I know that title may throw some of you, but when I wrote that I got to thinking how this journey has been since the injury. It has been slow and steady, yes, there have been setbacks and things. God has been there throughout and when I don't feel He's there He shows me in His own way that He is. When I am questioned how I don't always know how to answer so one understands I just know what He does. It is hard to put words because sometimes what we think are the right words to say are the exact opposite in someone else's eyes because they mean something different to them than they do to you. I mean like if I say "I'll have a bulls-eye, thanks." Someone might bring me a target with a hole in the center....that's not what I meant. Someone may say "I'll have an egg-in-a-hole, thanks." These two things mean the same the 'bulls-eye' and 'egg-in-a-hole' - it is a slice of bread with a hole in the center with an egg cooked. The same thing, but the wording is different.

Back to my "Beginning to find life"; I put this title because like I said I have seen changes in what's transpired since this injury. I have seen where I was and where I am now. I am not the same as I was I am changed I am different. You say how it's an injury; simple it's bad in the beginning but as time goes it gets better no big deal. Yea, ok I agree, but this has been a big deal. There has been so much that has happened. I have had people helping me daily, bringing meals, blessing my family when we were at wits ends not knowing what was coming next in this healing from the injury. That didn't matter, what mattered God knew. God knew who He was going to bring here, He knew who was going to bring a meal, He knew my allergy to onions - He knew I didn't have to worry about who brought meals because they knew my allergy. They weren't direct family either, no, they were my church family, my friends.

I say changes, there were challenges, pulling from the comfort zone, and so much more. There were times I felt like I was squashed by "God's Hammer" only close friends of mine will understand that terminology. I am better for it - I know more of what I have to do, what is expected of me. How can I say that? I say that because of what has been brought before me. I still have so much on my plate, am I overwhelmed? If I answered "no" that'd be a lie, if I say "yes" - then some may say don't be dramatic. Whoever said I was, did I say I was being dramatic no? I am calm in this even though there is so much going on right now. I will get through this. Why will I get through this, I will because I have committed my life to Christ. 
Thanks for Stopping,

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Deep In Thought........

Today has been a wet day with the constant rain coming down. I was looking for a picture to fit with how I have been today. Today I spent most of my time deep in thought. I have been thinking about so many things with all that I am dealing with in this journey of healing. I verse that I thought was from the book of Colossians. Colossians 4:2-3 (NLT) "Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart. Pray for us, too, that God will give us many opportunities to speak about His mysterious plan concerning Christ...." You may ask why this verse...well, I thought of this one because devoting ourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart; God hears us when we pray. He hears us when we pray and spend time with Him; our relationship grows with what He teaches us. Our hearts are more open to receiving what He has for us. I have been finding with this whole injury my spending time in the Word and prayer I have grown in so many ways. I realize that God means for me to be where I am. You think right away I dare to say; how can you say that? I mean seriously! Are you saying that God meant for you to get injured while in that pool for therapy??? No, I am not saying that. I am saying that He may have needed me to slow down and He allowed this.

There are times where God needs us to slow down and hear what He has for us. While getting injured doesn't mean that was the way He wanted me to slow down. It may have taken that because I admit I can be stubborn and push on when I shouldn't. Some circumstances are beyond our control. Sometimes just a card in the mail, a phone call, a knock on the door can throw us for a loop.  We need to be ready for what may come our way.  When we worry about something is us putting question marks where God puts a period. God appreciates when we do His work; what He has planned for us, for you, for me. There are so many ways that God gets our attention to get us to slow down to draw to Him. I am thankful for this time. This has been a long time; we are now five weeks in and I am still not where I need to be physically, but I have grown in so many other ways. 

I have been with four different women from my church. They come certain days of the week to help me at my home, with walking, with making meals for me, for conversation - times of refreshing for them and for me. We talk about things in our lives and share with one another.  They have taught me so much about them and they've said I have taught them so much about me. I have told them some really personal things that I don't share with just anyone. We spent time in prayer; we spent time in tears not always because of sadness, but in times of growth, times of frustration from things of negative anger. There are times that we spend singing our hearts out loudly with the television...hehe so loudly that we rock and roll my husband right out the front door. I hate to admit we laugh when we do that. Is that wrong??? I have to say that it's funny at times watching his reaction when he's going out that door.  In times like these, I have to think of God's glory rather than for my relief.  You may think why wait, how do you do that?? I mean seriously, naturally, we think of questions like these. "How did I get into this mess, and how can I get out?" "How quickly can I solve this problem?" "Why did this have to happen to me?"  That last one is a difficult one, isn't it? I mean when we get hurt, when we get into something that is catastrophic we think how did this happen? Why didn't I stop? Why didn't I see this coming? Sometimes we need to step back. When something comes at us; instead of reacting how we usually do "how can I get out of this mess?". We should change our thinking to "How can God be glorified in this situation. By doing this can change your whole perspective on the situation that you're in. 

When you think about it what comes to your mind? When you think of the enemy what does he do he comes in and bothers us, annoys us. His mission is to seek, kill and destroy. We need to acknowledge when he sneaks in and attacks us...we need to be at the ready and keep our eyes on the Lord. I have kept you here a long time so I will let you go. I thank you for taking the time to read my post. I will have more to write in the days ahead. 
Thanks for stopping by, have a great day,

Monday, June 5, 2017

Long Time No Visit

Greetings Everyone!!! I am sorry that it's been a long, long time since I have been writing. I apologize. I have been trying to get back on my feet and walking again. I am making progress with some setbacks. I am determined to move ahead. I did get some outdoor time even if it was just sitting on the bench outside my home. That's progress because I am not surrounded by the four walls that now feel like a prison. I hate to say it, but I don't want to be a fixture in my living room; in my living room recliner.
While I could focus on what I am not doing yet; I will not and refuse to. I have to say that this time with the challenges that are and were before me was very taxing on my emotions.  When this all began it was some back pain that started this.  I went to the doctor to seek help to find that I was directed to therapy.  I thought I was making the right choice. When I experienced some pain the first day I thought okay this is expected this is something different that I am used to doing. When it transferred over to the second day and continued from there as you know the rest of what happened. I knew then, that I had challenges ahead that haven't happened yet, challenges that I was facing right at that moment. I said that this was very taxing on my emotions. This was; those that came willingly to our home to help me with everyday tasks, personal tasks I am so very grateful and thankful for every moment spent with them. I am not saying that this is a one-way experience. That is not this in any way.  I say that because these were times of refreshing for me and for them. We learned from one another. They learned about me; things that I had experienced in life. I learned things about their lives; things they experienced. This has impacted how I have dealt with and continue to deal with this setback. Setback?! You may say is that what you call it?? It is and it is an injury from the physical therapy as well, but I will get to my goals and ambitions in God's timing. He knows what they are and when they will happen. While others may think that I am wrapped in what I cannot do. I am not while these things do get to my emotions going and I can become overwhelmed at times.  Those times have been fortunate to have been blessed with friends around and them to bring words from God to my heart that some didn't even know that I was struggling with things. I appreciate each one of them that have been here. I am thankful for my husband that the Lord gave me. I say this because of something dear and close to his heart he shared with me during this time of struggle with me. I will not disclose his words here as they were just that dear and close to his heart and not easy for him to share. I have to say that his sharing these words made our relationship even stronger and helped me to see things with him differently in the current circumstances that I am dealing with.

I have to say that today I am doing better, still have a way to come yet. I am getting there. I am not giving in or complaining at all that it's taking this long to get back to where I was. I can say that I am better for the challenges that I have faced already. I am stronger for it as well. I have been in the Word throughout this ordeal. I have been directed to scripture, to books, to other things that friends and family have brought to me. I was also given things from my Pastor during this time as well. He has touched my heart with his encouraging words through this time. He has touched my heart with his sermons as well. I know through this whole process I have grown in many ways. I am thankful for what God is teaching me through this.  I hope that you will stick with me to see how things turn out and where God leads me throughout this challenge. 

Thank you so much for taking time out of your day to read my post and stopping by. Have a wonderful day!!! 

Thursday, May 4, 2017

Glorifying God in Times of Trial

Good Evening Everyone!! Hope you're having a great day. I have to say that I had a rough day with pain and thoughts. I had a dear friend of mine from church staying with me to help me since I have been injured from participating in aquatic therapy because of my doctor's script. I had a tough time with getting up as I cannot do it on my own. I have to have assistance, then I have to use a walker once I am up. Using the walker is difficult as my right leg is not moving the way it should be. I cannot place my foot flat when walking. It will not go that way. If it is forced to go flat then it snaps back up because it will not go flat. 

I wish that I knew prior to going in the water that it was a bad decision for people like me with Osteogenesis Imperfecta. The resistance of the water and our body weight can cause injury and or fracture.

I was told by my doctor that I will be going for pain management for my leg, pelvis, hip until we figure if there are stress or compression fractures. The place for pain management mentioned about if I would be interested in medical marijuana. I am so on the fence with this. I have to say God has really blessed me, directed me in finding out about this. I knew I needed to find out first and foremost if my insurance covered this or not. I didn't want to get excited about trying something that may work for my pain and help my bones to have that excitement destroyed by the insurance company not covering it. I called our insurance company not sure what to expect out of the phone call, but I can say for sure I was greatly blessed and I was told by the one that I was talking to that I was encouraging to her. She said that I was positive and had a positive spirit. I feel that it was God that brought her and me together tonight in the phone conversation. I feel we both needed to hear each other and what we had to express to one another. I am so happy that God did that. I gave her my site and she said that she'd be sure to research Osteogenesis Imperfecta and come look at my site.  I hope I can be an encourager for her. 

I have to say that today has been very challenging as my leg has been spasming very hard. I cannot walk on my foot - I am walking with a walker. I have a wheelchair to go out to do things. I have to spend my days and nights in the recliner in the living room. I really wish that I could get in my bed. My doctors have said no laying flat it is dangerous at this point. I really miss going upstairs in my house. I ought to end things here for now and write more tomorrow.

Have a great night, thanks for stopping by,

Challenges that come how will you handle the storm?

Good Afternoon, Everyone! I hope that you have wonderful day today. I posed the question to you because I have had several chal...